Effing stressed, another weekend wasted. Effing stressed because I’m so far behind in everything and I only merely have a vague idea of what has been taught in the past 6 months when I in fact should know them at the edge of my fingertips. I should be revising and practising and studying so much more but instead I keep piling myself with more outings and activities because I just don’t want to face the reality of work. I hate myself because I know I can do it, I just don’t know why I’m not doing it.

I need to take control of my life. Stop going out so much. I guess I’ve been upping my social life factor to make up for my lack of a cca one but it’s stupid to do so at the expense of my grades. I need to get myself back on track. Just downed an entire mug of mocha from starbucks and I’m off for a night of mugging. Please don’t get distracted please don’t get distracted.